At least one day of each month I'll put on this rainbow equality shirt I have, along with my rainbow vans and rainbow eyeshadow, but each time I do this my Nan won't look at me or barely talk to me. She knows of my sexuality somewhat (enough to know I'm not straight) but chooses to completely ignore it. She always wants me to dress so "girly" and I've never liked dressing that way. She doesn't like the slit in my eyebrow and has told me repeatedly to stop slitting it but I refuse to, it feels like a way of showing my pride each day. Both of my grandparent are somewhat homophobic and all the way transphobic, so I know they'd freak if I came out as a sexuality and gender they've probably never heard of. I don't know what to do. I feel so trapped and alone.