tw: depression, anxiety, self harm. I am depressed but i cant tell anyone because im the "happy" girl in school, at home, and just everywhere. i have scared my skin more than 100x in a row (yes i counted them all) and i still don't feel anything and if i do its sh!t like sadness and hatred twords myself. i've thought about ending myself so much its become normal. everything i do for anyone is not enough. make my parents food- could've been cooked different. had something to say in a convo to anyone- rude, interrupting, dumb. i just wanna screem but i cant bc i would get yelled at. thx for listening.