I just started dating my guy best friend. We have good times. But there has been this issue where when I like someone, and if I find out they like me back, I lose feelings. That didn't happen this time. Now I have feelings for him still and when I'm with him, but they fluctuate. One minute I will have romantic feelings for him, the next minute I won't. And I flip between these maybe 10 times a day, maybe less. As someone who used to be anxious, this makes me anxious and ask myself, am I tricking myself into liking him? Are we compatible (for the most part yes we are)? Is this stemming from a disorder I might have (currently being tested for ADHD and I have unstable emotions)? What if I'm not actually pan and I don't like guys, or can't feel real love? What if I'm lying to myself cause just cause I wanted a boyfriend? My emotions typically do things like this anyways, but never to this degree and never romantically until now. Sorry that was super long, but idk what to do about how I feel or if this is normal. I'm waiting so that maybe if we get some more 1 on 1 time together that my feelings will start to even out, but the switch between no feelings & anxious and romantic feelings & calm is kinda unbearable. I am also pretty good at subconsciously self sabotaging, perhaps its seeping into my relationship too?