So I’m a teenager and have recently started labelling myself as bisexual (I’m not out at all) but then, sorry if this sounds weird or anything, I feel a sexual attraction only towards boys while girls I only have romantic. Both genders and sexes I would 100% date and it isn’t something that would put me off. I’m very much confused about it and don’t really want to put labels on myself if they’re wrong or I’m unsure about it.
The next thing I’m struggling with is the fact that my Dad is homophobic and tried raising me like that. To him, it’s a normal thing to be homophobic because of where he was raised and who he was raised around (it was a very rough area with plenty of prejudiced people). I’ve always been taught to not be rude to LGBTQ+ people in their faces or online but behind their backs its okay to make fun of them. I was also told not to be friends with people of the community. I obviously don’t feel this way, mostly because I know how stupid my Dad can be and my Mum taught me to love and respect all that I meet but every time I see or talk to a girl and think ‘omg I like her. Like-like her’ I freak out and tell myself that it’s wrong, even when I know it’s not and that I can like whoever I want to. Any ideas how I can deal with this? Xx