Just a warning I'm about to curse like a sailor and just here's a TW just in case.
I...my whole fucking identity crisis like I don't fucking know who I am. The only things that are stable at this point is my sexuality and my anxiety. Like what the fuck. It feels like my identity is just genuniely trying to make my life like living in Satans asshole.
For example ever since I was little I've never had one hobby or passion, no solid likes or dislikes, always indecisive, now being in highschool I don't have a fucking dream career or a dream college. EVEN MY DAMN GENDER IDENTITY OUT HERE SWITCHING UP ON ME.
FIRST I'm fucking comfortable with being a demi-girl and now non-binary and genderfluid just popping in like Obi-Wan just like fucking "hElLo tHeRe" like wtf-
I feel so uncomfortable in myself right now like it genuinely feels like a physical discomfort at the bottom of my spine just creeping up into my neck. So I'm doing to write a little about me page in my mental health journal and hope that it helps but right now Idk.
If anyone has any advice or comfort. I'll gladly take it. My trauma in the past keeps coming back up right now and it's not helping so...if someone's willing to give me a hug or a cookie I'll take both..:(