sooo...... where do I even begin with this? back in 2018 I released my full length debut album (not saying the name because I don't think this isn't the place for that) anyway I had plans to make videos for every song on the album including the ones that didn't made the cut (Its supposed to be a storyline based MVs) by the way 30 songs were recorded and only 15 made the final cut if anyone was wandering
now... this been goin on forever now and I want to put out some new songs so I gave myself a cutoff date Jan 1st 2022
which put even more stress on me because I'm not even close to being done with the storyline MVs and if I end up not finishing it I'm gonna feel paranoid that I didn't finished it
now you might be wandering "Dylan why don't you just take a break?" well.... you see taking a break isn't an option for me cause then I can't continue to do the storyline music videos therefore I am either not taking a break and continue to make more videos in the storyline or I am taking a break and don't continue the storyline MVs and instead work on *DS2
and it doesn't help the fact that I have social anxiety/im introverted I tried to be extroverted by sadly my so called friends pushed me in the introvert direction so fuck them I guess? which makes this even more harder and stressful and quite a pain in my ass to do
I feel like I can't do this anymore but I'm still tryin to hold on
not only do I have to get the videos done but I have to get a payment card so I can start selling my cds whenever I make them
I don't really know what else to say about this except I am fucking stressed so I am gonna end it here
I just needed to vent like I said if anyone have any suggestions just let me know
thanks for reading and sorry if this sounds whiny in some parts I'm just stressed
alright I'm out Cya