I have been a lesbian for as long as I can remember. I officially came out at the start of the year. I am also non-binary and go by they/them, just for a bit of background.
I have been in heaps of relationships, and almost all of them turn out to be absolute flops. I can't seem to find someone who won't break my heart.
Recently, I am starting to think that I am asexual, or at least demisexual/demiromantic. I can fall head-over-heels for someone, we start dating, but then the thought of being touched by them, whoever it is, makes me feel like I'm gonna puke. Don't get me wrong, I am perfectly confident in my body, and letting whoever it is that I'm dating see me naked, and being intimate with them (kissing, holding hands, all that), but the thought of being touched makes me feel ill. Sometimes, it's not just being touched sexually that freaks me out, sometimes it's just being in a relationship at all. I can't seem to find a solution!!
Am I asexual? Or have I just not found 'the one' yet??