I can't always be "fine", can I? But it feels like I have to be. I have to supply the lightness and the fluff. I don't want anyone to make a big deal out of me, so I don't want to say I'm not fine, even if I'm not. I haven't come out as Nonbinary yet either, and that's contributing to a lot of my not being fine. So I can't explain even if I did say I'm not fine. I feel like I can't talk about serious stuff without people getting annoyed with me, either. They don't think I know. They think I'm too young. So here it is folks, I'm not fine. I'm overwhelmed and just want to be left alone to draw and talk to you guys. I don't want to interact with people, because they don't know, and I'd really rather be drawing and listening to music. They all think I'm still a girl, they think everything's OK in my life and with my schoolwork, they think I'm "fine". And at this point, for reasons I don't know, I don't want them to know. I want them to keep thinking I'm fine and leave it at that. I don't want to make them worry about me, because that would be a bother. That's another thing. I feel like I cant say anything or do anything mildly annoying at the risk of being a "bother". So I just stay quiet and nonexistent. I don't know if I like not existing. I don't think I do, but it's nice sometimes. It means I get left alone. I'm sorry if this was long and ranting, I just needed to tell someone who would understand. Thanks for listening, and please don't worry about me. I don't want to cause any of you anxiety.